with loving resentment

I want to break this promise
renounce this responsibility
that you’ve chained around my neck
I resent you so much I can taste it
all you do is take
and transgress my feeble boundaries
with hurricane caresses
and carcrash choices
that derail my tightrope locomotive
and spin me out of control
barging through my quiet life
with cymbals and
you smoke all my stash
and whine for more
and don’t you get tired
of me
why don’t you get tired of me
i’m always saying the same things
and crying the same complaint
i can’t ignore you
but i want to